So it really is ridiculous how not cleaning my flat really changes my mood. I spent three days in bed sulking because I haven’t had the time to do it. On top of that its a vicious cycle of feeling overwhelmed that I have so much to do: moving house, university, being unwell, big changes and going vegan and I have been escaping it by sleeping but of course that leaves me feeling lethargic and depressed. Then I have no motivation to do the things I need to do. I have finally spent 6 hours catching up on everything and feel like a massive weight has been lifted off me! I cannot live in mess. Some people use exercise, organising or hobbies to gain control of their emotions, my thing is cleaning. Is that what having OCD is like? If you can’t carry out your compulsiveness it leaves you feeling lost and suffocated? Somehow having a clean and clutter free home helps me to keep a clean and clutter free mind.