Following a nasty relationship break down and losing my job I stood for nothing. I had no friends, no hobbies or interests. It is easy to hide behind your job and partner, but when that is taken away, you have nothing of your own. Unless you find out who you are, and believe in that person, you will never be able to stand on your own two feet.
Doctors tell you to take up the gym, eat better, go out and socialize. But I hate the gym and I have no confidence to turn up at a bar and start talking to random people. It was only through developing my interests and my father’s amazing idea to start this blog did I find out who I truly am. Along with that came many friends online and in real-life. Sometimes in life, you have to take the plunge. I remember being aware that a girl my age had moved in next door, I was desperate to meet her and ask about her elephant tattoo- I drunkenly knocked on her door and asked was a cigarette. Since then we have been friends. I also met my best friend through a dating site- we didn’t have much romantically in common but he turned out to be one of my closest friends ever. I also met my current partner online after he read about my love of vintage on this blog.
It is hard having a mental illness because we don’t want to be alone. But we can’t be with someone all the time. I live alone and I love my little flat, but sometimes I get bored and awfully lonely. I have expanded my hobbies and interests, through that I have grown as a person. This has made me happier in life. Now when someone asks me about my hobbies I don’t have to say I go to the gym like everyone else (because I don’t) I can tell them I love vintage life, collecting antiques, sewing, writing poetry, advocating for mental health and talking to you amazing people! Along with exploring who I am has helped shape what I want for the future: starting a degree in Psychology (starting in October!), restarting therapy, developing new crisis coping skills and attending vintage events.
You have helped me heal WordPress people, thank you so much.