I always have mindfulness grilled into me from mental health care professionals. If you are stubborn, like me, you will know that when someone tells you to do something you don’t want to do it. I attempted to practice mindfulness before in group therapy and hated every minute of it. How could I stop to focus on my breathing whilst my mind was racing with a thousand thoughts?! Recently I have gone about mindfulness in my own way. This time I am in control and I can use it in the aspects of life I want. Having anxiety mixed in with depression means that even making myself lunch can be a chore that takes hours. I have been using mindfulness and breaking down how I make myself something to eat. I start by making myself a cup of tea and only focus on doing that. I just stand there and wait for the kettle to boil. It sounds silly; because when you are anxious you are in a rush all the time, but I focus on doing that one thing. I then go on and make myself a sandwich. I also find it helpful to make my bed whenever I wake up. If I make my bed nicely it stops me from feeling depressed and wanting to crawl back into it. If I have things I need to do, I try to make a list in my mind or write it down. I try to focus on doing one thing at a time. I have also found it helpful to put things away when I am finished with them so it is out of my mind. This could be something as simple as putting away my laptop when my emails are done- even if I need to get my laptop out again later. With anxiety, you are always rushing. I have told myself to relax and take my time when doing things. Even brushing my teeth is rushed, but I close my eyes and try to focus on the sensation of brushing and not focusing on having to floss next. I have found that by taking my time to do things it can take a little longer, but I am relaxed and doing things properly the first time round, so I don’t have to go back to them later. I get very stressed about the things I have to do, I forget how to look after myself. I have been forcing myself to eat and shower. I tell myself to stop, eat and everything can wait. If you have social anxiety like me, going outside can be stressful. I find food shopping terrifying. I have been practicing mindfulness when going outside. I make a list of what I need to buy and work my way around the shop one bit at a time. I also remind myself that I am safe and I can be home soon. I have found that not doing everything in chunks has helped. Coming home from shopping I don’t put my things away straight away. I force myself to sit down, relax, and come back to it later. I have found that by breaking things down it is helping my anxiety. I am yet to try and use mindfulness when I am having a panic attack- I don’t think I am ready yet. I’m coming off Seroquel (Quetiapine) and starting on Abilify (Aripiprazole) tomorrow to level out my Bipolar/ Borderline mood swings- I will let you know how I can get on. Take your time to do things you need to achieve today- you are doing well.