My panic attacks have come back with revenge. I haven’t had them since last year. Not even the highest dosage of Propranolol is helping. I am having an intense panic attack once a day. I feel this tightness in my chest all day until I let it out. It seems to be happening anytime or anywhere. It is especially embarrassing having one in public. I have several warnings signs that I’ve learned to recognize in order to prepare me for a panic attack: I start hyperventilating, I feel really cold and have this overwhelming need to run away. Sometimes I feel I am in danger and have this feeling of dread. It’s almost like death is coming for me. I’ve had panic attacks where I’ve completely shut down from dizziness and passed out on the floor. I’ve been in the hospital more times than I can count! At the moment the only way I cope with my panic attacks is by experiencing them and letting them pass. Afterward, I feel I can breathe again and go back to normal. My boyfriend says it’s weird how I go from panicking like a caged animal to normal, talking Amy. I guess I’ve had them for so many years now I just get on with it. I find that taking my shoes off and “grounding” myself helps. I had a strange look from a passing lady when I was sat bare foot in the middle of a path once! I find saying a little prayer helps- God takes away this pain. I tell myself that “I am safe, I am safe, I am safe”. My loved ones hold my hand and let me overcome it in my own time. Panic attacks are scary because you can’t control them. They are also frustrating. The mixed feelings they bring make me cry hysterically. I think I am having them more often because I feel loved and am happy. I’m not used to feeling like this- I’m terrified I’ll be hurt or mess it up. All I can do is be strong and remind myself that I have so many things to be happy about and I deserve them.