In loneliness I can’t be hurt
I remain inside the womb
My emptiness is comfort
In dark and grey consumed.
You said you would take all of me
My memories and mistakes
After all this time alone
How is this an offer I can take?
I learnt love doesn’t come free
Kisses are part of a deal
How do I know the words you are saying
Is something that is real?
This pressure inside my chest
I forget how to breath
Sometimes it needs bursting
To once again feel “me”
My face was pushed into the ground
Bleeding mouth in gravel
My legs found the strength to push up
Slowly letting the bandages unravel
This corner is my haunting
Quarter of a century as a shadow
You see me as I am
Showing me the world isn’t that narrow
I feel I have failed
When I have so much life to live
You remind me of the good in me
I have so much love to give.
Happiness scares me to death
It is a feeling that is so new
So let time be my healer
To accept the words “I love you”